Summer

This week coming up is exam week. I know I should study

my butt off for them but I can't bring myself to waste

that large amount of time. I know..that's ridiculous. This

summer I have set goals and aspirations for myself. I 

cannot wait to see how my life changes this summer. I

hope, dream, pray, want, wish, feel, desire, ponder my

dreams every night before I fall asleep. I can lie awake

for hours just thinking about my dreams and the future.

I don't think about where I am now, or what I am doing

with my life now. I just think about where my life is going

and where I want it to go. I dream about what I want more

than anything. I really am a big dreamer. You guys have no

idea. I don't know how many people read my blog posts.

For all I know, this is my virtual diary and I am the only

one who sees it. Either way, I feel I can share these things

with anyone (or no one) on here.

Current Favorite song

"Whoa Oh!" By-Forever The Sickest Kids 

I candy-coat and cover everything 
but I'm still hiding underneath 
It's been a long time, 
It's been a long time 
A thousand faces looking up at me 
hands all pointing to the ceiling 
Oh what a feeling 

I've got friends in highly low places 
I'm standing on post, and I'm posted up
cant afford to lose them 
I've got friends and highly low places 
I'll go inside when I wanna party 
Grab a girl and dance (don't touch me) 

Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh, 
Why do I put myself in these situations 
Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh, 
I keep pushing myself even though 
I can't take it at all, whoa 

Girl, who taught you how to move like that? 
at this pace you're at you're at you're going way too fast 
I, I saw you from across the room 
It's me vs. every guy 
It's your choice, you choose 

I've got friends in highly low places 
it's been a long time it's been a long time 
and maybe baby you can rise above the rest to meet me 

Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh, 
Why do I put myself in these situations 
Whoa Whoa oh Whoa oh, 
I keep pushing myself even though 
I can't take it at all 
Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh, 
Why do I put myself in these situations 
Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh, 
I keep pushing myself even though 
I can't take it at all, 

You're worth, 
losing my self esteem 
Your clever words mean 
nothing more to me than 
than a line i heard in a movie 
You're worth, 
losing my losing my losing my self esteem 
You're not worth, 
putting myself in these situations 

Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh, 
Why do I put myself in these situations 
Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh, 
I keep pushing myself even though 
I can't take it at all 
Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh, 
Why do I put myself in these situations 
Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh, 
I keep pushing myself even though 
I can't take it at all

My new favorite song :D

JONAS BROTHERS "PARANOID" :]

--loveee ittt <3--

i make the most of all the stress
i try to live without regret
but i m about to break a sweat
im freaking out
its like a poison in my brain
its like a fog that blurs the scene
its like a vine you cant untame
oh im freaking out
everytime i turn around
something dont feel right
i might be paranoid
im boarding the lines
cause they just might split
can someone stop the noise?
i dont know what it is
but it just dont fit
im paranoid
yeah

i take the next stairway steps
to get some air into my chest
cant hear the thoughts inside my head
im still freaking out
thats why my ex is stil lmy ex
i never trust a word she says
im runnin all the background checks
and shes freaking out

everytime i turn around somethings just not right
might be paranoid
im boardin the lines cause they just might split
can someone stop the noise?
i dont know what it is
but it just dont fit
consider me destroyed
cause i dont know how to act cause i lost my head
j i must be paranoid

i never thought it would come to this
im paranoid

stuck in the room
were staring faces
ohh
im caught in a nightmare
i cant wake up
if you hear my cry running threw her streets
im about to ffreak
come and rescue me

she might be paranoid
yeah
im boarding the lines cause they just might split
can someone stop the noise?
i dont know what it is
but it just dont fit
consider me destroyed
i dont know how to act cause i lost
cause i lost my head
i must be paranoid
i never thought it would come to this
im paranoid

Newest

I just ordered a new iPod nano. I decided my old

nano has music on it that was from my old laptop

and so that library is gone and I don't want to mess

with it. My iPhone has my newest library and favorite

music on it but I don't want to jog or exercise with my

phone. So I decided to get a new one. It's a purple

nano. I got free engraving on the back. It says

"follow your dream (Jennifer Lynn)" I kind

of wish i would have put the Jonas Brother 

quote "livin' the dream baby" or "Life's a climb,

but the view's great." from the Hannah Montana

movie. I don't really care though. But yeah that's

my exciting new news for the day.

Oh and my brother left for Washington D.C today

so I'm an only child until Saturday night. I pray

he is safe down there and really has a great time 

and that God keeps my little brother safe all

the way through his journey home.

People

I sometimes wish I was surrounded by more influential and inspirational people...

That's all I am going to say. 

Good day.

My life:Update

My life is something I like to blog about so one day a 

few years from now, I can look back and think 'wow that's

what my life was like'...hopefully I'll be able to say "it was

so boring and slow compared to my life now"Obviously I

like life in the fast lane. I'm a going, going, and keep on

going type of person. I keep swimming..even against the

current. This wasn't my point of this blog but it seems

like a good path to travel along. Ever since I have been

doing schooling on my own terms my life has been the

way I want it. I finish school work around 10-11 A.M.

then I read, do yoga/pilates/walk my dog at the park/

bike ride. I stay active. I practice my violin and keep

time to myself. I like being alone. I honestly don't mind.

When I listen to music, I let my mind wander wherever

it wants. Usually I end up day dreaming about how I 

want my life and where I want to be. My mind is never

blank. Maybe that's why I have troubles falling asleep

and then staying asleep. I spend more time at night lying

awake thinking when I really should be letting my mind 

rest. It's not something I can truly control. I've tried

many times, but all attempts prove futile. Well I

am sorry for boring you all, my blogging friends.

I will be back (manana) tomorrow to tell you what

new thoughts have creeped into my mind when it

really should be vacant. Adios.Chao. Goodbye.

Weekend-5/15/09

So yesterday my mom and I picked my brother

up from school and went to eat at O'Charleys.

After that me and my mom went shopping

at Macys. YAYY shoppping :D and now for 

the rest of the weekend I will be at my

acting classes for a total of 18 hours.

@#$%^&* happy weekend right?

Ohio Weather gets me Down

Ohio is a state that experiences all four seasons...in one week.

The beginning of this week was sunny and mostly warm and

beautiful. As of yesterday, it's been rainy and stormy and 

chilly outside. It stormed all night last night. It's under

constant cloud cover and it's getting me down.  I don't

like wet, cold, cloudy and depressing weather. I like

it warm and sunny and bright! I think I'll try to convince

my mom to let us move somewhere with consistently

gorgeous weather. It really is true that the weather 

affects your mood. When it's sunny I'm happy and

bouncy and outside being active. When it's rainy I'm

sad and lazy and sleepy and I feel like a bum because

I can't do things outside.. *sighhhh*

My Tues. May 12, 2009

Well I did my school work this morning. 

After that I read my newest favorite book

'The Alchemist' (by Paulo Coehlo) outside.

It was a little chilly but gorgeously sunny.

I had lunch with my momma. Then we

left to pick my brother and his friend

up from school. After we dropped them off

we had to go out to Versailles, IN for my

dentist appointment. Then my mom and I

went to dinner at Golden Corral. It was amazing

but we ate so much. So, when we got home we

decided to go for a bike ride at the park. When

we got back we chilled in the backyard playing

with out dogs and enjoying the sunset. I just

finished my pilates workout and now I'm

going to finish 'The Alchemist'. 

I have no class connects tomorrow

so I can sleep in. And since it will be

rainy, I will be stuck indoors doing 

indoorsy stuff all day. I love my life!

My weekend

So Friday night I went to my brother's confirmation.

(I was his sponsor). And after we went out to eat. My

best friend, Marci, came over and spent the night. The

next day (Saturday) we all went to Kings Island. (Yes,

we rode Diamondback...twice. It was pretty thrilling).

Saturday night my mom, brother, and I went to my

cousin's graduation party. She just graduated from

college. Sunday my mom and I took a road trip to

Ohio University to visit my older sister, Jessica. We

surprised her with her dog, Kasey. It was so fun seeing

(and hearing) her be surprised. Haha! We had lunch

with her and then went walking around a bit on campus.

It was a fun weekend. And I was totally exhausted today!

My newest YouTube video

This is me and my best friend, Marci. We have some crazy and funny times at night. Watch it, you'll laugh! :D

Contributions

In order to work towards my goal of being a "better me"

i just spent the last hour (which I would normally be 

watching 'The. O.C' on soapnet) and I biked 14 miles

which include lots and lots of hills. I rode to the bike

trail (3 miles away) I biked the entire trail (8 miles) and

then I biked back (3 miles). wow those hills are killers..

especially going UP! haha. and for those of you checking

my math right now: let me help you out (3+3(=6)+8=14)

Yes! I did it and later on tonight I'm going to do my daily

pilates workout for 40 minutes and yoga for atleast 30

very soon here. I hope I inspire others to be healthier 

because it truly does make you feel a lot better about 

yourself...oh and it was some good quality time with my

little brother.

TWITTER

I know there's a thing on the side of my blog

about my twitter account. but I though I 

would advertise in a blog as well. I want

as many followers on twitter as possible.

so either follow me through the thing on

the side or go to my twitter profile :

http://twitter.com/jennwickman

Inspiration

I have decided if I want to get anywhere in life, 

I need to start trying now. An education is a 

solid foundation for a great, happy future. 

If I plan on aspiring towards my dreams by

working hard. I am going to start trying harder

with my school work. I have set a goal to finish

my sophomore year strong with good grades.

I am fascinated by my religion. I plan on reading

the bible to help keep God in my life and as a big

part of my life as well. I will keep doing yoga and

pilates to keep my body in shape.  I will learn to love

my flaws and not worry about what others think. I

have a long way to go to get where I want to be.

It won't be easy; but it will be worth it. 

I've learned

Life is hard. People are mean. God will always

be there to pray to. You can't always count on

the people you want to. Not everyone is

truly a good person. You must follow your

dreams no matter what. Don't get discouraged,

don't lose your way, don't let anything bring you

down, and never give up hope.  I plan on following

my dreams and doing anything that I can do

to make myself happy and have a great future.

No matter how much people talk or all the

negative things they say. Don't listen and keep

going strong. Keep a tough skin, especially

when times get hard. Hang in there and God

will help you through it all. 

xx