Oh good Lord

I saw this commercial to get a free Bible so I went to

the website to request one. After typing in all of

my information and requesting my free Bible, a notice

pops up and says missionaries will arrive in a few days.

HOLY GOD. I'd like the free Bible and all, thats great!

But missionaries en mi casa? THEY DIDN'T SAY THAT

ON THE COMMERCIAL OR BEFORE I ENTERED MY

ADDRESS AND AGE AND ALL. Can I sue this company

for sending strangers to my house? I know that'd be a sin

to sue a religious, non-profit organization...but they should

warn you that they're sending friggen missionaries to your

house! Remind me to tell my mom not to answer the door

when they come in the next few days. Good lord.

Don't request a Bible through Mormon something

or other. They'll send missionaries to your house.

(it's kind of like soliciting)

What to do?

Last night I had a dream and I KNOW it was from God.

It has to do with my future. I know I can take care of

myself. There are different possibilities as to where I

will take myself in life. I know where I want to go,

what I want to do, and who I want to be...I just don't

know how to get there. I know it will be hard and it

will take a lot of work and dedication and tough skin.

I can handle all of that. What I can't handle is making

the actual decision. I wish I knew how the future would

turn out depending on which way I choose to go. I know

I'm supposed to live in the moment. But what I do know

affects me later on. I need a guardian angel now more

than ever.

You may not know that:

-My confirmation name is Elizabeth.

-I have a cat named Fritzi and I've had her since 2nd grade.

-I got my first puppy last Christmas, and her name is Muffy-she's a shih-poo.

-I've been playing violin since 4th grade.

-My favorite vacation place is Disney World.

-When I turn 18 I am skipping college and moving to L.A. to start my own life.(say what you want)

-I have a soft spot for animals.

-I want to name my kids: Adam Joseph, Brody Adam (I know I used Adam twice) and either have a Noah and a Natalie (just to throw those in there as well)

-My favorite band is the Jonas Brothers

-I've had 7 or 8 different journals/diaries in the past.

-My favorite number is 9 because that is my favorite NASCAR driver's no. (Kasey Kahne!)

-My sister's dog was a stray that we saved and was named after Kasey Kahne.

-I also have 2 cats (Chloe & Pumpkin) and two other dogs not yet mentioned (Blackie & Bella)

-I want a new car (BMW X3)

-I wish I lived in CA;near a beach, with palm trees, sunny year round, and a place for my dreams.

-I am a tad bit materialistic, but it is mostly for myself.

-I do try to sing (if you watch my YouTube)

-I really enjoy meeting new people.

-I tend to lean more towards dark haired guys.(its just a majority I've noticed from the past)

-I like dying my hair different colors to see which I like best.

-My current obsession is Smoothie King.

-I have a crush on Harry Potter.

-I've seen every single episode of 'The OC'

-My all time favorite book is 'The Alchemist"

-I have read the 'Twilight' series 6 times.

-I love being filmed/photographed (which is good for my career choice)

-I prefer talking on the phone to texting.

-I have a bah habit of picking the split ends of my hair.

-I have a Mac laptop;which I am on way too much.

-I want to meet Rachel Bilson some day.

-One of my goals is to meet Jenny Craig before I die.

-I'm a republican.(although they tell me I'm not supposed to tell anyone..)

-I read a lot, I really love it!

-I'm a perfectionist.

-I am dyslexic.

-I have a muscle disease called fibromyalgia.

-I am an undiagnosed insomniac.

-I eat/write with my right hand but do everything else with my left.

-My favorite exercise is biking.

-I read the bible.

-I love the park.

-I love to bake. (my mom calls me Betty Crocker)

-I want to live in England for a while later in my life.

-I want to raise my kids to have english accents (see above^)

-I often think about the future. (yes, it scares me to death)

-My current favorite thing to do when I'm bored is making lists on my blog

I saw God today

So my mom got me a credit card to use for gas and "emergencies."

She let me keep it with me this past week just because it was more

convenient. Well, yesterday after getting my extensions taken out

(YES I DID IT!), My sister and I went to the mall to get Smoothie King.

Then we were walking through stores just looking and at 'Express' I saw

this super cool purse that was $60 and I thought "I can find a cheaper one".

We go through 'New York & Co.' And I see cute purses for $30-$40.Even

better! I said "lets go to Macy's and come back if I don't find anything"

Wellllll...Macy's had Dooney & Burkes and JEnnifer is helpless when

she is put in the same room as designer greatness. So my plastic beauty

paid for my GORGEOUS new Dooney & Burke purse. I was happy but

had that guilty feeling. When I got home my mom went BALISITIC .

As crazy as a mother can get when her daughter spends more money

than she could on her credit card for emergencies only. She gave me

the whole "you don't have a job, you can't support yourself, you know

darn well you shouldn't have spent this much money on just a purse!"

Yeah I don't have a job, but this is where the point of my story is:

I decided I should get a nice little job to pay for my own things and

to save up for when I move out on my own and for school/college/things

like that. Weellll God being the great Lord that he is intervened and I

didn't realize it at first.

Jo Hirlinger wrote on my wall on facebook offering me a job at

her dad's carlot. HOW EASSY IS THAT!? answer phones, 3 hours a night

a few times a week. And the pay is great! That night when I was saying

my prayers and falling asleep, it HIT ME! THE HEAVENLY FATHER I

HOLD FAITH IN WAS THE REASON FOR ALL THIS.

bottom line: I saw God today.

Good parts of life

-Rain at nighttime.

-Laughing until your stomach hurts.

-Finishing a good book.

-Driving with the windows down on a sunny day.

-Laying by the pool, getting warmed by the sun.

-Escalators.

-Smoothie King.

-My mom bringing me starbucks in the morning.

-My puppy sleeping next to me.

-Getting lost in music.

-Discovering something new about the world.

-Staying up late at night watching scary shows on t.v.

-Talking to that one guy who gives you butterflies in your stomach.

-Confiding in a close friend.

-Watching Jim Gaffigan on YouTube.

-Twitter.

-Wipeout (Wed. @ 8PM on ABC)

-That 70's show marathons.

-Flying in an airplane.

-Road trips.

-Taking a nap in the middle of the day.

-Sitting at the park.

-Capturing nature's true beauty.

-Reading the Bible.

-Looking at old pictures.

-Blogging.

-Pedicures.

-Sleeping through breakfast.

-Roller coasters.

-Talking on the phone for a long time.

-Buying new sunglasses.

-Bon fires.

-Spending time with momma.

-Drinking ice cold water when you're really hot.

-Knowing you have no school work during summer.

Belittled

Maybe I've been wrong all along.

Maybe I've been living in a fantasy.

Maybe I've failed to see what's right in front of me.

Maybe I've thought too positively.

Maybe I overlooked the small, yet true facts.

Maybe I was too hopeful.

Maybe I haven't been praying hard enough.

Maybe God can't hear me.

Maybe reality is stronger than any dream.

Maybe I set my goals too high.

Maybe I've been too busy dreaming it, not doing it.

Maybe all my dreams will come crushing down.

MAYBE MY MOM IS RIGHT.

Here we go again

What's that saying; Old habits die hard, is that it?

Yeah well if thats it BOY IS IT TRUE. good lord.

I feel like I'm part of the water cycle here.

And the part where I do the habit, yeah that's

precipitation. Then picking myself up and putting

me back together is evaporation. Trying my absolute

hardest to attempt in keeping my changed ways

is condensation and then my mind wins and that

means: when it rains IT POURS. Oh Lord.

I'm just gonna vent here

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good lord!! I get so maddd at myself when these things

happen. like GOSH JENNIFER don't give in. be mean

not nice. Don't let people take advantage of you. I swear

on my life its so annoying and frustrating. (DONT WORRY

I'LL EXPLAIN WHAT HAPPENED) It just bugs me that

people only want to do "acting" so they can be rich, or

famous, or meet famous people and what not. GODDDD!

It makes me so mad and frustrated.

So here's the story:

This girl (yes I know her but haven't talked to her since

7th grade) messages me on facebook saying "Do you know

any good agents/websites/locations that are for acting. I want

to get into acting but I don't know EXACTLY how."

DUMB DUMB DUMB. this is the number one way to make me

so frustrated and mad. Like for real!?!?!?!!?

1)it's NOT THAT HARD. EVER HEARD OF GOOGLE!?!

2)We haven't talked in forever you're just using me.

WHY THE HECK DID I REPLY?!?

she doesn't want to do acting. It's not a passion she has.

She wouldn't tolerate the long days, the demanding rehearsals,

the cruelty and rejection of the industry. I KNOW I KNOW IKNOW!

SHE just wants to be famous. She just wants to brag to her friends.

She just wants to say "I live in Hollywood, I do acting, I'm rich,

I know famous people." GAHHHH AMETUER.! (i know its spelt

wrong.) I DONT CARE.

I have put so much into this just to get where I am (which isn't too far).

My parents spent boocoo bucks on acting lessons I've been taking for

a year. 18 HOURS A WEEKEND! I leaarn the businesss and I enjoy it

because it is what I truly love. I left high school so it wouldn't hold me

back from auditions. and guess what I WAS RIGHT AND MADE A GOOD

DECISION WITH THAT. OR ELSE I WOULDNT HAVE AN AGENT OR

HAVE GONE TO ALL THOSE AUDITIONS. OR HAVE GONE TO THOSE

PHOTOSHOOTS TO GET MY HEADSHOTS AND PICTURES TO SEND OUT.

I'm more than dedicated to this. (not that other actors aren't, I'm sure they

can empathize with me) BUT WHY THE HECK DID I REPLY TO HER!?

I SHOULDN'T HAVE SHOULDN'T HAVE SHOULDN'T HAVE! DANGIT!

IT JUST MAKES ME SO MAD. I DEDICATE SO MUCH WORK INTO THIS.

EVERY DAY I PRACTICE EVERY OTHER MONOLOGUE I HAVE MEMORIZED.

YES I HAVE 6 MONOLOGUES MEMORIZED FOR AUDITIONS. this girl

doesn't even know what a monologue is I KID YOU NOT!!. it just makes me

so mad she all of a sudden decides she's going to ask JENNIFER ON FACEBOOK

HOW TO DO ACTING BECAUSE SHE WOULD LOOK SO COOL TO EVERYONE

I'm really sorry for this but I really really really needed to vent. I didn't

really expect anyone to care or read the whole thing. but I didn't want to

go punch a wall or anything (no, I don't need anger management [: thanks)

DOES ANYONE ELSE AGREE WITH ME THOUGH?!?!?!??!

Blast from the past

Today's "Blast from the Past" is featuring:

WHO? : Brandie Potzick

WHERE? : Washington D.C. (as seen in pic.)

WHEN? : 8th grade. (May 2007)

WHY? : Brandie & I went to Panera today and caught up and reminisced and talked of old times. I decided this picture fitted in perfectly with my life as of this day.

Necessito sus opinones

Sooo, next Friday I have a hair apt to get my extensions moved up

(they're on little beads and as my hair grows out, every so many weeks

I go back and get them moved back up). I've had extensions since

February. I'm thinking it's time for a change. I know my mom put a lot

of money into these but I think I'm ready to part with them. I'm torn

because I feel like they're a big part of my looks and I need them with

my career. (now, how logical or illogical that sounds, I'm not so sure.)

But here's why I want them out:

-They're heavy, especially when I put my hair up. It slides out and hurts

after awhile.

-I feel like I can't do much with them except wavy or straight.

-I can't pull my hair up/back certain ways because you will see the

beads they are on.

-My hair is actually only about 2 inches shorter than the actual extensions

now so its almost as long as them. therefore extensions are pointless now.

-It's just time for a change.

-Time to go back to all natural.

TELL ME YOUR OPINION PLEASEEEE.

I miss my friend..

Let's call this friend Rock. (so you don't know if its a boy or girl, but by the way I talk about Rock, you'll probably be able to figure it out.) It all started in the beginning of 6th grade. I thought Rock was so cool and I really wanted to be Rock's friend. And in 6th grade Rock was in my class so we grew to be very close friends. Rock would come over to my house and we'd have sleepovers and have so much fun. (you probably just figured out Rock's gender...told you.) Anywho, Rock introduced me to cheerleading and we were so so close. We both made the cheerleading squad in 7th grade and that made me feel even closer and more appreciative of Rock. Rock had introduced me to this new passion I had no idea I had or even held talent for. Sure we had a few ups and downs but which close friends don't? Yeah. So anyways, in Jr. High, Rock and I were still friends through cheerleading but we had aquired new friends and different cliques, and circles, to hang around. Of course that was okay. I felt like I could lean onto Rock because Rock was going through some rough things but I looked up to Rock as a solid figure. Once high school came around, we were still friends through cheerleading and even had a class or two together so we still chatted. Then sophomore year we had no classes, no cheerleading, nothing to keep our friendship together. Of course we still said Hi in the hallways and smiled at eachother and talked if we saw eachother after school at friends' lockers, but other than that, Rock and I had lost touch. Then I left school and we only talked virtually and not even real concersations.

Last night I had a dream about Rock, and we were at this weird camp (I'm not sure where, but that's how dreams go.) and I loved that we were really close and really great friends again. It made me miss the days in the past when we were so close. I'm not sure if Rock will read this or not, and even if Rock does, I don't know if they will realize this is directed towards them. Rock you are still in my heart. You will always be. I will always desire your friendship and cherish the amazing moments we had. I love you Rock ,and I always will.

I miss my Rock.

Pumpkin after Catnip consumption

New experience

Am I nervous? OF COURSE

Am I excited? ABSOLUTELY

Am I anxious? A LITTLE BIT

Am I ready? AS MUCH AS I'LL EVER BE

Am I prepared? PROBABLY NOT AS MUCH AS I SHOULD

Am I certain? AM I EVER..?

Am I wishful? EVERYDAY

Am I thinking positively? WITH EVERY THOUGHT

Am I worried? I'LL LEAVE THAT TO MY MOM

Am I hopeful? ALWAYS

Am I holding steady? I'VE NEVER BEEN STEADY

Am I new to this? 100% !!!!!

DO I HOLD FAITH IN THE LORD? EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY

"Dont wanna be torn"

I have a decision to make. It is completely my choice. No one can answer

this for me. It's all on me. So do I say 'Yes' or answer with a firm 'No'...

I wish there was a sign. Something to show me what the right choice

would be. I've considered all of the possibilities of both outcomes.

The negatives aren't enough to overrule the positives. However, I

don't want to regret this. Whether its sooner or later. Regret is what

I am trying to avoid. I know the quote "don't regret anything because

at one point it was what you really wanted." I just don't have

enough faith in myself to make the right choice with nothing bad to follow.

*I found this song. And it says it all. Listen to your heart.*

Maybe its the things I say
Maybe I should think before I speak
But I thought I knew enough to know myself
And do whats right for me

And these walls I'm building now
You used to bring them down
The tears I'm crying out
You used to wipe away


I thought you said it was easy
Listenin' to your heart
I thought you said I'd be ok
So why am I breaking apart?
Don't wanna be torn

Maybe I should choose
Between what I want
And what you think I need

Cause I'll always be your little girl
But even little girls have got to dream
Now it all feels like a fight
You were always on my side
All I need now
Is to make it go away

I thought you said it was easy
Listenin' to your heart
I thought you said I'd be ok
So why am I breaking apart?
Don't wanna be torn

Why is all this so confusing?
Complicated and consuming
Why does all this make me angry?
Wanna go back to being happy

Cause here I'm crying now
Trying to walk away

I thought you said it was easy
Listenin' to your heart
I thought you said I'd be ok
So why am I breaking apart?
Don't wanna be torn

So far so great

Off to the races
I'm going places
Might be a long shot
Not gonna waste it
This is the big break
And it's calling my name
Yeeeaah

So far so great, get with it
At least that's how I see it
Having a dream's just the beginning
So far so great, believe it
Can’t take away this feeling
Taking a ride with chance to my side
Yeah, I can't wait
So far, so great

Might need to wing it
Still gonna bring it
Not gonna sink low
I'm going swimming
Swing for the fences
Sky's not the limit today
Yeeeaah

So far so great, get with it
At least that's how I see it
Having a dream's just the beginning
So far so great, believe it
Can’t take away this feeling
Taking a ride with chance to my side
Yeah, I can't wait
So far, so great

Everyone says don't get your hopes up
Learn the ropes and climb the ladder
I know in the end that just being here is the best
And it only gets better, it only gets better

So far so great, get with it
At least that's how I see it
Having a dream's just the beginning
So far so great, believe it
Can’t take away this feeling
Taking a ride with chance to my side
Yeah, I can't wait
So far, so great
I can't wait
So far so great

Filming schedule

Pre-shoot

Wed(7/8):Final wardrobe fitting @6PM

Thurs(7/9):Meeting with crew @5PM

Filming days/times:

Sat(7/11):8AM-7PM

Sun(7/12):8AM-6PM

Mon(7/13):11AM-8:45PM

Tues(7/14):7PM-11:30PM

Wed(7/15):6:30PM-10:30PM

Thur(7/16):2PM-6PM

Fri(7/17):7PM-12AM

Sat(7/18):6PM-1AM

Employed!

So today my sister, brother and his friend, and I went to Kings Island

today and it was a blast (although I was there just Thursday with Marci,

Jacbob, and Tim). However the most exciting part was the carride back.

My mom called and asked where we were. I told her we were on our way

home and would be there soon.

Her reply: "Okay, I've got something important

to tell you.

Me:"Tell me now."

Her:"I can't I'll start to cry again."

(Of course I make her tell me right then and there if it's that

important and emotional.)

Turns out:

I GOT THE PART FOR THE PRODUCTION I AUDITIONED FOR THE

A FEW WEEKS AGO.HOLY EFFING MOLY THIS IS A DREAM COME TRUE!

All I have to say is:Thank you Lord God. I couldn't have done this without you.

You work miracles in ways that I can never detect. But I have faith. I had faith

all along this journey. And as this journey carries on I will continue to hold

my faith in you and all my trust and love. Thank you Lord, for EVERYTHING.

"Identical" Ellen Hopkins

This book was incredibly insightful. One word I would use to describe it: EYE OPENING! It's about two twin sisters who struggle with a mother who doesn't care anymore and a father who is abusive (with drugs/alcohol, and sexually). They hide all of their problems from the world. After an accident, their family was never the same. The mom was rarely home and the father was extremely controlling and as you can see, very messed up with life. They have to put on pretty smiling faces to the public because their mom is in politics so everyone knows who they are. The ending was what you would call 'unexpected'! If you ever saw the movie The Uninvited, the endings in that and in this novel are kind of similar in a way or so. I did not see it coming at all! I must say this book was very dear to the heart. I love the way Ellen Hopkins wrote it. I am definately going to read her other books as well!

FAVORITE QUOTE:

"You are my glue. Without you, I'd be nothing but broken pieces."

'Miles to Go' Miley Cyrus

This book was exceptionally good. I think it was so so so soooo inspirational. She really explains her life story well. I admit that I was a little bias against her from what I heard through the media. However, the way she explains things in her book clears things up and tells what truly was going on in her life. And of course, she would know best. I would find amazing quotes throughout the memoir and I wrote my favorite ones down. I honestly think you should go get a copy and read it because it is so inspirational and true to the heart. By the end, I didn't want it to be over.

"You realize you have one life-and you have to live fully for the moments you have. There can't be room for nerves."

"Beauty is the enemy. We try to conquer not feeling beautiful all our lives. It's a battle that can't be won. There's no definition of beauty. The only way to achieve beauty is to feel it from inside without breaking it down into physical attributes."

"The biggest moments of insecurity come when all self confidence is lost and you feel like people are watching and judging. It should be the opposite. You should feel like the people who are watching care about you. This is something we can try to give each other-the feeling that eyes signal support, not disdain."

"Embarrassment is the worst. Its the feeling of having your entire body go numb and not knowing what to do with yourself for that one moment. There's no solution to embarrassment. It happens and you just have to put it behind you."

"Fear is the only obstacle that gets in the way of doing what we love. People are scared to travel, to try new things, to follow their dreams. Fear holds us back from living the lives we were made to live."

"Success is the progressive realization of worthy ideas or goals." -Billy Ray Cyrus

"Well don't be scared of anything. People waste their lives being scared. Lasso the moon. But don't do it because someone tells you its the right idea." -Cyndi Lauper

"Faith is having the strength to trust in something that you can't see with your eyes or prove scientifically. You believe because your heart tells you that's where you should go or who you should be. Your heart tells you what is right."

"If there's one message I have for my fans, it's that you can make your dreams real, but you have to enjoy just being. Make the best of the life you have every day. I can't wait to see what's in the days ahead, but I also don't want to fill them up too fast."

f_ _ _mylife

So this afternoon my mom and I get in an argument

and I decide that it's best for me to leave the house

instead of just lying in my room, sobbing my eyes out.

So I got to the park and bike the 8 mile in record time

(30 minutes). I had suglasses on but I'm pretty sure some

people could still tell I was crying because they would look

at me weird; and I think one lady tried talking to me but

I head headphones in so I couldn't hear. I just kept on

biking. I sat on a bench for, Oh I don't know, half an hour?

I decided to stay out as long as I could. I went up to the

really big hill and sat on a bench there for awhile until some

creepy old guy walking smiled his creepy smile and waved at me,

then I took off faster than you could say RAPEEEEE. I might

just be paranoid, but he wasn't a cute old guy, he was creepy.

I cruised around for a bit realizing I honestly had no where

to go. (and not just because the library was closed. I wouldn't

have gone there anyway because I was a mess and couldn't

pull myself together.) But I decided to come home. Thinking

my mom would be all mad and upset I was gone for so long

and stormed out the way I did, turns out she wasn't even home.

She left shortly after I did to do grocery shopping with my sister.

Psshhh. Me wasting time trying to worry her that I'm gone for

2 hours when she knows I'm never at the park more than 45 minutes.

Oh well, I plan on being locked in my room all tonight and tomorrow.

Except when I sneak out to pee. And when my laptop dies I'll have

to get the charger too.

This is what it's come to (I'm a nerd) aka*bookworm*

My blogs have become laaaaame. this is probably the

most weirdest and most pointless blog you will ever

read. It's my reading list.

-"Miles To Go" Miley Cyrus

-"Identical" ***

-"P.S. I love you" ***

-"True Believer" Nicholas Sparks

***-I don't remember the author off of the top of my

head and I don't really feel like going to look at the

books to determine the author. But if you're really

interested in knowing who the author is I will

gladly find out JUST FOR YOU..quite possibly anyways.

Love this song

I'm counting the days since i began to live without you
I'm covered in rain but it feels just like it's the sun
And it don't get me down, don't come around
You're better off leaving town
I'm partying from now on without you

Hey!
I'm screaming at you
Hey!
Don't care enough to write you a letter now that I'm doing better alone
Hey!
I'm screaming at you
Hey!
Don't care enough to write you a letter now that I'm doing better,
better off without you

You're stuck in a world and make believe that I can see it
I gave it a chance, she must be crazy not to leave
You're never gonna bring me down,
don't come around
You're better off leaving town
I'm partying from now on without you

Hey!
I'm screaming at you
Hey!
Don't care enough to write you a letter now that I'm doing better alone
Hey!
I'm screaming at you
Hey!
Don't care enough to write you a letter now that I'm doing better, better off without you

Giving it up, now you're taking away
All of the time, now get out of my way
Never been lost in anyone, it's me they want
Without you I'm insane
So hear me now, screaming out your name

Hey!
I'm screaming at you
Hey!
Don't care enough to write you a letter now that I'm doing better alone
Hey!
I'm screaming at you
Hey!
Don't care enough to write you a letter now that I'm doing better, better off without you

Better off without you
Cause I'm better off without you

I'm screaming at you
Hey!
Don't care enough to write you a letter now that I'm doing better, better off without you