Rambling

Lets see hereeee:

-Heath ledger's quote "Can you put a price on your dreams?" (as heard in Dr. Ingoriums Wonder

Emporium trailer) is sticking in my head right now and I'm pretty sure God has something to do

with this, as in it's a sign for me.

-I have an eye exam tomorrow which I'm really getting stressed/anxious about because I hate

how they dilate the pupils. eeeekk!

-I have to work for the first time by myself for a shift tomorrow. eeeeeekk (again!)& I have to drive to work with dilated pupils (zoinksss)

-My sister is in Michigan for the week with her boyfriend so that's one less week of being with

her before she goes back to college.

-This Saturday is our family picnic that we have each year with my mom's side of the family

and I guess I should be really looking forward to it...but I'm not as excited as I should be.

-I don't really expect anyone to care while reading this, I just wanted to vent and Twitter

only lets me enter 140 characters at a time...annnd I've been tweeting a lot today.

-My school lessons open next Monday (Aug. 17) So that is the start of my school year.

-I go to the JONAS BROTHERS CONCERT in two weeks!! (WED. AUG 26) in Columbus, OH

and as you are probably already aware..I AM SO PUMPED! WOOHOO.

-I've been experiencing random nauseous moments, head aches, blacking out, light headedness, high blood pressure (which is EXTREMELY rare for me.), and fatigue-for the past few weeks

and it's not getting better (YES, I'm complaining. I apologize. You don't have to read this though, that's all YOUR choice)

-I haven't really hung out with my friends in awhile since I started working..and also I don't feel like it too much because of me being weirdly ill (-at times-). And plus is the "end of summer blues"

-I haven't been reading as much as I normally do. Now the only times I read are at work. (which is a lot of free time, but still!) My library holds are all coming in and here I am slacking on my reading.

-I really want to get back into my violin lessons that I took a break from back towards the end

of June. I just don't have time (or the will) to practice..and that makes me disappointed in

myself because it's been a part of my life since I was a little kid (4th grade..thats a ways back)

and I want it to remain a part of my life for a long, long time. *Sighhh*

-Today I had a bad head ache so I didn't go to work and guess what...I'm still sitting in my PJ's

and it's almost 8 o'clock (PM!) I know-bum right?

-The best part of my days (the time I look forward to the absolute most) is at night when I am

lying in my bed trying to fall asleep..but I think by now both me AND MY BRAIN know I don't

want to sleep..I lie there and day dream (well its night time,so night dream) about how I

would love love love love love truly love my life to be. The song affects my mood and the

pictures I see in my head. I guess your life can be considered "unsatisfactory" when you actually

look forward to dreaming. Didn't Dr. Seuss once say "You know your life is great, when you

don't want to go to sleep because reality is better than your dreams." ** (something like that).

Well in this case, it is actually the opposite.

-I live on a one-day-at-a-time basis. I easily get anxious, stressed, worried, concerned, upset

with the future and I can drive myself crazy just thinking about it. (It happens too often)

So thanks for letting me rant. I should be good for awhile now =]